The Integration Tax

Some of my thoughts are deep and some are even deeper. If I would have the option to separate my deepest thoughts from my emotions I wouldn't last.

Some thoughts are like knowledge nuggets. I look at them and I am mesmerized but it. Then there are thought processes, thoughts that line up like a chain of pearls.
In part I can't help to follow my thoughts. The have a level of freedom which makes me pause at times. The freedom of thoughts is still not my issue. It is my recovery from it. 

New insights have to settle and sometimes the content is hard to re-iterate, to reflect on, to integrate, ad hoc, as fast as the thoughts occur. 
Takes time. Often enough my emotions help me there. They help me to balance my existence, the constant adaptation and transformation with whatever I learned, recently, previously. 

I can't separate my emotions from my thoughts. Not built like that. 
What my heart doesn't like, my mind won't let me keep it.


It is almost a symbiosis, I guess. Because one can't function without the other. (as efficient as)

There is a suspicion that I can't shake. What if. those two meant to be one, working as one, as a general natural law. It's normal.
OR
As a vehicle to get me to a specific point. Almost deterministic, except it feels more evolutionary. 

That combination was tested. 
That combination delivered. 
That combination lasts.

 

 

 

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